Now That You Are Gone

I thought my walls were in place

That my heart and head were safe

You showed me that wasn’t the case

I learned that I didn’t need space

Needed to know I wasn’t alone

I learned so much this time

Saw how much we are alike

More than I could have known

All the hours of cigarette breaks

Our long talks on the porch

Laughter, sorrow, and memories

Revealing all our mistakes

Time spent watching dramas

Disappearing into Capeside

Escaping the world around

Sitting in comfy pajamas

Sporadic trips to Wal-Mart

Searching for cheap snacks

Soda, pizza rolls, and ice cream

Throwing things into the cart

The time went by so fast

Growing closer by the minute

Learning so much about you

I just wanted it to last

Mission impossible in one night

Trying to complete all of the series

Looking at the clock after each episode

The time approaching for your flight

You brought out a side of me

One that I always keep hidden

I’m not good with emotions

Being heartless was the key

I tried to stay strong

And not show my tears

But the end made me cry

And so did the theme song

I watched you get out and leave

I did my best to keep my composure

I hugged you and said my goodbyes

To think I could be strong, how naïve

However, I didn’t shed a tear

I went completely numb instead

Locked away all my emotions

Knowing my breakdown was near

Then I broke down and cried

And the floodgates did open

All I wanted was to numb the pain

Ignore the truth and hide

The truth is so very clear

We grew closer this time

Sealed our friendship, our bond

Something special and very dear

You are loved and missed

But you’re not really gone

There’s always another trip

For that’s why planes exist

I’m still staying up to dawn

And next will be just the same

Things are not same around here

Now that you are gone